The Golden Thread

After searching through the grey ash that took my view of life, I found something that i could hold onto. The visualization was that of a golden thread. Everything else was grey ash.

From what I understand of my experience - which isn't total yet - is that the golden thread represents intrinsic truth. The rest is not important or completely true or false. The golden thread is what runs through everything. Perhaps it parallels the term "the golden mean", which is an actual mathematical formula that is present in all things.

Sensing that there was this golden thread has helped me to recover from the depths of a perception that nothing i could do would make a difference. The idea and visualization of the golden thread provided me with something to look at that was beautiful and clearly moving through everything.

Another perception is that there is a lot of information out in the world that is partially true - but not fully. The golden thread is intrinsic truth. It would not have an opposite. However, in the world of duality, there was only the grey ash.

Ash

It's hard to describe in words the things that have transpired inside me lately. There definitely have been some outside influences - especially with my kids and ex that have challenged my outlook.

There's another aspect of this place i had recently found myself in. It was a sort of internal crisis, which, thankfully, seems to be resolving. I found myself in one of the most foul moods I have ever been in. Beyond anger and frustration, this was deep. The only way I could describe it to my friend, Joanna, was to tell her this:
"...that I feel like I woke up and the rose colored glasses were gone and everything has turned to ash."

When examining why I was feeling this way, I could find no final answer. It became an exercise just to sit with myself and try to let whatever come up surface to be looked at. The pestilence of the world, and how i have found myself fighting it in my own way. The feelings of betrayal, futility, and other more moribund issues surfaced and I was at a point in time when I could let them. Of course, I wanted to blame something or someone. However, perhaps I've done a bit more internal spiritual work to know that that's not necessarily the case. These things are there. What we do as individuals or as a society to move to a more humane life, is up to us.

There is an opinion that what goes on inside is reflected on the outside. Perhaps it happens the other way, too. How we deal with it, perhaps, makes the difference.

Lots of Data

Here's an interesting short film. I'm not sure where the information came from, but it's worth a gander.