Thanksgiving and Gratitude

This week is Thanksgiving holiday. Of course, in our culture, this means lots of things - turkey, family, shopping, football.

Lately, i have been feeling a lot of gratitude. That's good for me. It has been awhile, but for two or three years, I kept a gratitude journal. The gratitude journal was a spiritual exercise of sorts, from Simple Abundance. Basically, the practice involved writing down at least five things a day that i was grateful for. There were days when i would write, but not feel anything i could associate with gratitude, and i was wondering if i was getting anywhere with it. Although it has been a few years since i did this exercise, i have been remembering to be grateful in my prayers at night. Lately, i have been moved to tears because of the gratitude i have felt for friendship, guidance, and experiences. That, to me, is probably the most profound expression of gratitude and thankfulness that i have had.

So, as we move forward into the colder, darker, more introspective part of the year, i hope to keep the light of gratitude and thankfulness burning brightly.

Aquarium Pictures

Yesterday, the boys and i visited the aquarium. Although we only stayed for an hour, the boys and i took lots of cool pictures. Here are some:

Psychic Pressure

It's been a few weeks since it started, but i feel like there has been a terrific build-up of psychic pressure and some associated phenomena. I would really appreciate getting some clarity on it, and perhaps writing will help.

I have identified a person who is serving as a catalyst, and wrestling with what to do, if anything, about it. Part of it is my personal desire for intimacy and personal connection. Another part, and perhaps more important to me, is the remembrance of how i want to spend my time here on the planet. This whole scenario has generated a fierce amount of energy in me....spiritual, physical, and mental and strangely enough, not much of the emotional body. A couple of the people i met last weekend commented on the vast amount of light energy they saw around me, so it appears that others are seeing this phenomenon. My dreams have been varied, and although i sleep quite well, there is usually a span of 2 hours in the middle/early morning, when i wake up or go into a yogic type rest.

My understanding of this is that i need to release and let go, and let things resolve themselves naturally. I have thought about communicating this to the person who appears to be the catalyst, but wonder if it is really just my inner work - to do alone. Does anyone have any suggestions or comments?

Open Heart in the Mountains

This weekend I had a wonderful experience in the North Georgia Mountains. It's hard to tell the difference between falling in love and experiencing an open heart. I think the phenomenon are related, but not always. I don't want to this feeling to end. I fell in love with the land and the people that i met there. It's happened to me twice before, near Asheville, North Carolina. Eventually, my heart goes back to a less expanded place. What I would like to know, and may have the opportunity to experience, is whether or not the heart will stay open if I continue to revisit this place. We'll see. It looks like the possiblity of a new adventure!

Life Choices

Lately, I have been feeling so much energy in my body. It's been hard to direct it productively and ground myself in order to feel like i usually do. Earth meditation helps. I think until this phase passes, at least 20 minutes a day will be recommended!

It's a rather expanded feeling, but i was noticing it escalating to a point that was not comfortable. I can liken the feeling to watching and feeling my washing machine on the spin cycle today. Yep, my perception that i was spinning very, very quickly - and not necessarily going anywhere with it.

Later, i received information that brought be down to earth rather abruptly, but surprisingly, some part of the energy is staying the same.

The piece that brought me back to earth is rather personal. Something I have been working on for a couple of years. Without going into too much detail, it got me thinking about the choices i have made in my life and how they effect/affect the timing of events in my life.

This said, I continue to wonder what my life would be like if i hadn't made the choices i made. Quite different, i would suppose. Would I be happier? Would I be more financially successful? Perhaps more spiritually advanced?

It's interesting to look at the choices i've made and realize that life sometimes gets in the way of doing things i might otherwise be doing. Then, there's the little option of doing them anyways.

Hmmm.