Enough Faith

I had an interesting weekend, which i'll write more about in another post. Right now, i feel the need to exercise my option on writing about one of those "somethings" that is given little spoken value outside of traditional religion. Faith.

On Sunday, i attended the Urs of Hazrat Inayat Khan. It was a small group of six that met to recognize the day that murshid died. A death day. In sufi tradition, i have heard it called a wedding day. The day a soul leaves the body and joins again with the one-ness. A happy day for the soul, but perhaps not so happy day for those souls left in their bodies. The feeling of separation is so much greater in the body.

Anyways, as part of the Urs, we got to pick a saying of Murshid from one of his many published books - Bowl of Saki. Simple yet profound sayings on the subject of life.

Mine, which perhaps i kept, hmm, mentioned "Ye of little faith". Yep, i can safely say that perhaps i have not taken faith as an attribute to foster in my life. Maybe that's pragmatic, maybe it was an oversight, and maybe it just wasn't time. I have had that said to me before, most recently by an old boyfriend, about a year ago.

Since i have been actively trying to release those old relationships and patterns surrounding the pain associated with attachment, and the patterns of my choice making based on old belief systems, etc., etc. It was timely to hear about faith.

For some reason, pain has seemed to drown out or eclipses so many of those other attributes - like love, happiness, joy, faith.

And, for one reason or another, i really didn't have a good idea of what Faith felt like - or an increase in Faith - felt like, until i asked for it. I had confused Belief and Faith, and I had confused Devotion and Faith as well. However, over the last few days, i have a better understanding what Faith can mean. Blind Faith, and Faith based on an understanding of personal responsibility.